In late November 2023, a remarkable event unfolded in my life that I can only describe as transcendent—a divine encounter with Kali Ma during a Kundalini Activation Process (KAP) workshop. Fresh from my training in Mexico, my heart brimmed with excitement to share the profound “Transmission” I had experienced. Little did I know that my journey of healing and discovery was about to take an unexpected turn.
As I navigated the uphill path out of immense grief—a catalyst propelling me deeper into the spiritual realms—I had a limited understanding of Kali Ma as a goddess of transformation, destruction of negativity, and fierce compassion. What unfolded in my space that day was beyond anything I could have imagined.
As I began the workshop, Kali’s presence enveloped the room with an unmistakable power, manifesting strongly in the right corner by my fireplace. It felt as though she stepped through a portal, her energy flooding the room and charging the atmosphere with a fierce spirit that resonated deeply within me. I immediately recognized her essence, and others appeared to sense her arrival too, expressing themselves in ways reminiscent of her imagery—sticking their tongues out, embodying her wild and untamed nature.
Wearing a flowing black dress that danced like a raven in the wind, I moved through the room, feeling the fire of her energy igniting our collective spirit. What started as a workshop evolved into a sacred ceremony, where we all witnessed and felt the depth of Kali Ma’s presence. It was a moment of transformation, alchemizing grief into empowerment and confronting fears with fierce love.
However, just a few months after this profound experience, I became aware of misconduct from the KAP founder. This revelation forced me to reevaluate my values and ultimately led me to step away from the brand and into the unknown. It was a pivotal moment that further deepened my understanding of my own boundaries and spiritual integrity. Kali’s appearance was a preparation for a deep letting go of a practice I had grown attached to.
Now, over a year later, Kali continues to be a constant presence in my life and work. Her guidance was especially profound during my Innerdance training last year when I accepted her invitation to work closely with her. Shortly after that, I faced the fires in Los Angeles, which occurred just months after my arrival from Palawan. These experiences have been interwoven, teaching me resilience, strength, and the power of surrendering to the unknown.
Kali Ma is often seen as a protector and a guide, urging us to embrace the shadows within ourselves. My initial encounter was a powerful reminder that even amidst pain and sorrow, there is profound strength to be found. She calls on us to confront darkness and emerge renewed, stronger, and more authentic.
This journey serves as a testament to the transformative power of the divine feminine and the profound impact that spiritual encounters can have on our healing journeys. Though I entered the workshop seeking to facilitate connection to oneness and expansion of consciousness, I left with a deeper realization of my own resilience and ability to step up and face the discomfort of letting go, guided by the fierce love of Kali Ma.
As I continue this spiritual path, I carry the essence of that encounter with me—a reminder to honor both the light and dark within, embrace transformation, and embody the fierce love that resides in all of us. Each day, I strive to honor Kali’s teachings as I walk the path of healing, transformation, and empowerment, holding space for others who seek the same.
This experience was not just an event; it was a call to action—a deep invitation to live fully and authentically. In the spirit of Kali Ma, may we all find the courage to confront our inner battles and rise anew, embracing the fierce, transformative power that lies within each of us.